Books
Life After Russian Roulette Redemption
Murder, corruption, sanctioned killings, and destroyed lives still haunt an alcoholic ex-narcotics detective as he prepares for ordination in seminary. He seeks forgiveness and redemption as he confronts his shadowy past in the dark cave of his psyche and soul.
LIFE AFTER RUSSIAN ROULETTE: REDEMPTION is a psychological thriller based on true accounts of the life of Michael B. Kaminski during the years he was an undercover police detective in Baltimore, Maryland during the 1970’s.
Immersed in an underworld of drug groups, organized crime associations, and police corruption, Kaminski became addicted to “the game” as he wrestled mentally, psychologically, and emotionally with illegal, unethical, and immoral choices and decisions. The lines of right and wrong, good and bad began to blur before his eyes as he justified the end goal. Living under three fictitious identities for almost five years, Kaminski’s conscience created a moral downslide that inevitably led to depression, suicidal thoughts, and mentally destructive behaviors as he numbed his true feelings and loss of personal identity with increased addiction to alcohol. After resigning from the police department with three contracts out on his life, and after two failed attempts to kill him, Kaminski went to work as a licensed private investigator for the criminal lawyers that he worked against when he was undercover. Eventually, a near-fatal accident almost ended his life. High on morphine in an unknown hospital, Kaminski would make a commitment to God for saving his life again. After entering a seminary and receiving ordination, Kaminski struggled with his faith. Finally, he would find what he had been searching for all his life.
At first glance, you might think you know how police and undercover detectives work. But you could be dead wrong. How an individual enforces the law, many times, is reduced to personal decisions. Hidden within the plot of this story is a series of inner conflicts that many people in law enforcement make in the line of duty.
Immersed in an underworld of drug groups, organized crime associations, and police corruption, Kaminski became addicted to “the game” as he wrestled mentally, psychologically, and emotionally with illegal, unethical, and immoral choices and decisions. The lines of right and wrong, good and bad began to blur before his eyes as he justified the end goal. Living under three fictitious identities for almost five years, Kaminski’s conscience created a moral downslide that inevitably led to depression, suicidal thoughts, and mentally destructive behaviors as he numbed his true feelings and loss of personal identity with increased addiction to alcohol. After resigning from the police department with three contracts out on his life, and after two failed attempts to kill him, Kaminski went to work as a licensed private investigator for the criminal lawyers that he worked against when he was undercover. Eventually, a near-fatal accident almost ended his life. High on morphine in an unknown hospital, Kaminski would make a commitment to God for saving his life again. After entering a seminary and receiving ordination, Kaminski struggled with his faith. Finally, he would find what he had been searching for all his life.
At first glance, you might think you know how police and undercover detectives work. But you could be dead wrong. How an individual enforces the law, many times, is reduced to personal decisions. Hidden within the plot of this story is a series of inner conflicts that many people in law enforcement make in the line of duty.
Dark Soul
Every book has a soul. It is the reflection of the author who created the story. “DARK SOUL” is an exploration into my soul. I believe that everyone has a hidden dark side because of their past, whether or not they admit it. In the end, hopefully, my story will inspire you to take a personal journey into the cave of your mind, psyche and soul.
SHARON'S LIGHT
“SHARON’S LIGHT” is intended to inspire the reader to take a journey within oneself in order to seek, see, feel, know, and acknowledge the power, presence, potential, and depth of the LOVE OF SELF.
-How does a person define true, honest, real, and complete love?
-Before someone can love another person, truly and honestly, that individual needs to find the seeds of love planted within.
-It is only through surviving the dark nights that one can be liberated and find and feel love for Self and others.
“SHARON’S LIGHT” is my way of healing from the loss.
Sharon, in her own way, taught me a powerful lesson.
She gave me a new meaning and purpose in life.
Sharon changed my dark soul into a bright light.
She taught me how to feel again.
She taught me how to love.
“SHARON’S LIGHT” is my way of healing from the loss.
Sharon, in her own way, taught me a powerful lesson.
She gave me a new meaning and purpose in life.
Sharon changed my dark soul into a bright light.
She taught me how to feel again.
She taught me how to love.
The Miracle of Room 405
There are times when we tend to take our lives for granted and not appreciate the precious gift of life that we have been given. That is the way I lived most of my life. THEN I DIED IN A COMA. Have you ever thought about what it would be like to die? Have you ever transcended or attempted to visualize AFTERLIFE, life after death? “THE MIRACLE OF ROOM 405” presents a vision of my life, death, and Rebirth when no one believed that I would live, Now, I believe God saved my life, returned me to this world, and transformed me because I still have unfinished work to accomplish and goals to achieve. God has given me a wonderful glimpse and vision of Eternity before my final “Expiration Date” and my “shelf life” comes to an end. Now, come with me to experience “THE MIRACLE OF ROOM 405”.
A Time to Be Born, a Time to Live, a Time to Die
A Living Legacy
“A Time to be BORN,
A Time to LIVE,
A Time to DIE”
(A Living Legacy)
“WE ALL DIE……
The goal is not to live forever, but to leave behind
something that will.”
(Chuck Palahniuk, author)
LIFE is like an “unfinished symphony” with four movements or
the seasons of a year:
SPRING (Birth, Childhood)
SUMMER (Youth, Young Adulthood)
FALL (Middle Age)
WINTER (Old Age, End of Life)
A TIME TO BE BORN, A TIME TO LIVE, AND A TIME TO DIE
is my story, my legacy.
What is important to you in your life?
What do you want to be remembered for doing, achieving. or
accomplishing after your life comes to an end?
What will be your story?
What will be your legacy after your “expiration date” comes due
and your “shelf life” has expired?
I did not think about my legacy until after 1 returned to this life
after my death of living in a coma.
Then, I experienced a new life, a second life, a “Rebirth”, a new
“Springtime”.
The Lifelong Journey Of A
Temporary Sojourner
“THE LIFELONG JOURNEY OF A TEMPORARY SOJOURNER”
is a journal about my journey through life. Actually, it is about both of my lives.
I believe that each person is a sojourner in this life. Each one of us is on a journey. Some people may walk only a short distance along the way. However, for everyone, this world is not our final destination. It is only a temporary stay. After all, no one gets out of this world alive. A Sojourner is defined as a person who resides temporarily in a land that is not their own”. As I reflect on my journey, I believe that I have walked two paths in this lifetime, the wrong path and the right path. I have walked the path toward darkness before my coma and, then, the path toward a brighter life after envisioning Eternity when God returned me to this lifetime.
See, along my path before my coma, I had many temporary stays in life. I had 22 professions, including that of a graphic arts illustrator, an undercover police detective in drug organizations, and organized crime. Ordained minister, magazine publisher, and published author. When God returned me to this life, following my coma, everyone thought that my life was a miracle. No one expected me to live. After experiencing Eternity by God, I realized that I needed to find Forgiveness, Redemption, and Salvation in my life in preparation for Eternal life.
I believe that most people have had to live through the dark nights of their lives, when their lives were full of struggles, worries, and remorse for past actions, decisions, and mistakes. The times when they felt the deep tragedies of their lives. If you are one of those people, hopefully, the dark nights have passed, and you can see the brightness of a new day. This is my story. However, it could be a reflection of your story. God allowed me to be “Reborn” in my coma. Without a year and a half spent in a coma, I could have never realized my “Rebirth”, a new life, and a brighter future in my journey as a temporary sojourner.
I believe that each person is a sojourner in this life. Each one of us is on a journey. Some people may walk only a short distance along the way. However, for everyone, this world is not our final destination. It is only a temporary stay. After all, no one gets out of this world alive. A Sojourner is defined as a person who resides temporarily in a land that is not their own”. As I reflect on my journey, I believe that I have walked two paths in this lifetime, the wrong path and the right path. I have walked the path toward darkness before my coma and, then, the path toward a brighter life after envisioning Eternity when God returned me to this lifetime.
See, along my path before my coma, I had many temporary stays in life. I had 22 professions, including that of a graphic arts illustrator, an undercover police detective in drug organizations, and organized crime. Ordained minister, magazine publisher, and published author. When God returned me to this life, following my coma, everyone thought that my life was a miracle. No one expected me to live. After experiencing Eternity by God, I realized that I needed to find Forgiveness, Redemption, and Salvation in my life in preparation for Eternal life.
I believe that most people have had to live through the dark nights of their lives, when their lives were full of struggles, worries, and remorse for past actions, decisions, and mistakes. The times when they felt the deep tragedies of their lives. If you are one of those people, hopefully, the dark nights have passed, and you can see the brightness of a new day. This is my story. However, it could be a reflection of your story. God allowed me to be “Reborn” in my coma. Without a year and a half spent in a coma, I could have never realized my “Rebirth”, a new life, and a brighter future in my journey as a temporary sojourner.